The hard part is over...

There are only a few things in this world that scare the poo out of me.... cockroaches, clowns and homeless people.... but I am adding one more thing to the list... quitting jobs.

I put in my two weeks notice yesterday and before I walked in that office I was terrified, but once I started talking I guess it was not so much scary as it was difficult. I have worked with the Board of Law Examiners for three years ( well + a month or two) and this routine has come to be part of my life here in Raleigh.

Giving up my job, my work friends, and some of my financial security is part of the Korea plan, but not necessarily easy to follow through on.

I was very nervous to shut Mr. P's door and hand him my letter, hands slightly shaking, and say, " I just want to give you my two weeks notice in person"... I was suprised that he let his shock or suprise show. " Well we hate to lose you, you are a great employee", I then proceeded to stammer on about how "I have this great opportunity to travel and teach", and "but not to worry, because it is only for a year, and I will be back at that point...." it was so hard, and As I was saying the words it was hard to believe them myself... " My last day will be Sept 18th." And that is when it started to sink in.... that would be my last time waking up to the alarm and driving myself downtown from my cozy apartment to the Moore Square Parking Deck, Crossing Wilmington Street to One Exchange and pressing the combination on the door to let myself in to go to work.

Someone else will soon occupy the desk that has been mine for so long, and someone else will call Wendy their Office Mate....

It started to set in way faster than I thought, and I could feel the knot in my throat, and though I didn't actually cry, I felt like I wanted too...

That is how I know I will miss this job, and miss this office, and most of all miss these people, who have been fun to work with and amazing to know.

I hope to keep up with them, The internet is a beautiful thing... I want to hear the stories of crazy applicants and the stories of their friends and families I have grown accustomed to hearing about during the working hours.

The Board will be missed, but there is alot out there that I would hate to miss out on as well...

I am starting to learn, the bigger the risk the greater the reward... or the harder I will fall on my butt.... we shall see which turns out for me... ( I am going to pull for more reward, and less butt falling!)

Now I feel slightly bad for laughing at Joseph when he was so introspective when he quit at AC Moore. It is just a job, but so much more comes with it. I really will miss everyone.