As we try to downsize and think "
hmmm can I sell this?"... it is starting to become more real what we are doing. Not that I am sad or nervous... Excited is the word I would use right now... As it gets closer and closer and we realize "
ohh this is the last time we will ______", those are the moments it really sets in.
I think of my life right now, and I know I will miss
a lot. I will miss the
conveniences of my current city life, I will miss my car, and my bed and my security here in Raleigh. Raleigh has always been my security and my home. Raleigh is the place of my family and friends and I do feel an immense sense of guilt as I gladly pack to move. It will be different when I return. I know that. I have learned over and over that things are never the same when you leave and then come back. It happened to me when I left for college and I will be shocked if it is this city is the same as it is now upon my return. Things constantly change, but when you are around it all the time you don't notice. When I come back from Korea... I will know.
A lot can happen in a year. It will be interesting.
Of all the things though, I will miss family and friends the most. I have lived near my parents
at least within a three hour drive my entire life. Korea is a 12 hour flight that I won't be able to take for the weekend when I had a rough week and just want to chat with my mom. Letters, phone, E-mail and
web cam will be my communication from my new home.
Friends will be missed too. My old time friends who have always been there, and I know will be there when I get back, but also friends I have made in my art classes and at work. They will be missed as well. I want to use this blog to keep them updated, and have them feel they are part of my life as well. I also hope to use it to document my travels, my triumphs, my failures and my
adventures.
Life on
Geoje Island will be my first of hopefully many amazing Adventures.
Last night I started the process of downsizing... I have two closets bursting at the seams with clothes I have held on too... some since middle school... ( sad I know) But I put them in garbage bags and I intend to drive them straight to the Good Will. I will only be able to pack what I can take into two suitcases, instead of the two closets, chest of drawers, and chair full of clean clothes I have not yet put away, that I have currently had my clothes residing in. I am slowly but surely organizing my apartment so it will pack easier... Never in my life has my apartment been so clean. I am sure my mom would be so proud.
I think I have also come to the decision, I am going to sell my couch... it makes me terribly sad, because my couch was the first major purchase I ever made after starting my new job. I picked it out, and it was comfortable and wonderful... but I just don't have the money to store it away for a year. It would cost more to store it than it did to purchase it. And I will need the money for other reasons. I will miss it, but I am sure I will find another one I love just as much when I come back.
With things rapidly coming to a halt in the US, before my beginning in Geoje Island, I try to enjoy each day, and make note that this is the last time I will __________insert anything_____" before I go. It will be different, but exciting and new... and that is what I have been looking for all along.